Might have Mono….
Last December I was planning an epic adventure across Costa Rica with my buddy Gregg. Unfortunately, I tore my ACL playing in the Annual Flag Football Turkey Bowl. The day I was suppose to leave the country, ended up being the exact same day I had reconstructive knee surgery (the first major surgery of my life).
I was disgruntled. I questioned God’s goodness in my life. I was like, “God? I’m pretty sure surfing in Costa Rica for 3 weeks is in your will…”. After an hour (post diagnosis) of questioning God, I was ashamed that I even vocalized those things to Him.. made me feel like Peter when he denied Christ. However, God loves me so much that He revealed Himself in the midst of my pain and encouraged me. I was reminded of Paul and his inflictions, Jesus’ whole life of suffering, and every other follower of Christ… who was I to complain? God is always in control. He is always driving us to dependence (my favorite word in this season of life). He taught me soooo much through that surgery. I’m thankful for it now.
Fast forward »>
I wanted to go back. I transfered the canceled flight money into a new ticket. A ticket that would allow me 3 months in Costa Rica. I was planning on helping a language school with their social media, helping a surf institute with their videos, and surf 80% of the time. The life, ya? I’m like, “Wow God! You allowed my knee to get busted up last year so that I can spend more time in the CR? Your will is awesome! Thanks”.
That wasn’t His will…
After the first week, my body started failing me.
I got 2 ear infections within two weeks (coupled with a fever). This week, I have severe pain in my throat. $200 later, I find out I either have Mono or Strep Throat. I’m praying for strep (it’s curable and doesn’t last as long… I’m taking anti biotics for it now)
This begs the question- “Is God good?”
He has shown up soooo many times in my life, how could I ever doubt His love for me? I can’t. Christians are accused of being “overly optimistic”. Well, when you believe God has a plan for you, and you have experienced it over and over again, your dependence in Him grows. In Him, there’s no room for pessimism. The glass is always going to be half full. God has a plan… I might not see it right now, but it’s there. His timing is perfect. He may be encouraging me to study more Greek, be available to my roommates 24/7, work more for the school, humble me, etc; all of which are good things. I don’t know what His will is now, but I’m hopeful He will reveal it to me sometime. If not, I still submit because He’s legit.
We serve a good God, yall.
25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.